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Men Propose but God Dispose

Kite hanye pandai merancang tapi Tuhan yg menentukan...

Aku penah plan b4 cuti utk blaja kereta...rase bhw mase yg ade b4 bertolak pg melbourne is sufficient enough 4 me 2 master driving skill..

skali plan tu cancel trus... tp aku hepi sbb mmg byk tpt yg aku pijak cuti ni..ade mase nnt aku upload la photo dlm this blog...

kengkadang aku terase putus angin utk menulis..xtahu ape tujuan sebenar buat blog *sigh*

dan kengkadang ketandusan idea... ape yg aku dapat sebenarnye??

dan aku kembali bingung..... ape yg aku nak buat sebenarnye ni......

cukup ke?

penah x ko rase hidup ko hepi je...
ape yg ko nak ko dapat
dan ko merase ko lah manusia yg bahagia
ko mampu buat semuanye
sebab ko rase diri itu sgt terer
ko lupe sape yg bg ko nikmat segale

then bile musibah menimpe
ko xnak terime hakikat
ko cube blame org sekeliling
ko merintih mengeluh
bertanye kenape ko yg perlu lalui dugaan ini

ko sedar x
dlm ko mengangkat jari telunjuk utk salahkan org
4 jari lagi menjurus ke arah ngko

ko sedar x
TUHAN tu ade
tempat memohon segala

ko sedar x
bila ko susah
ko baru nak tunjuk muke
memohon dan berdoa

tp mase ko senang
ape yg ko buat??
enjoy sakan x ingat dunia
xreti beza dosa ng pahale

ko sedar x
ko tu xde ape2
hanye belas kasihan TUHAN yg bg ko bernafas kat dunie

then ko perasan
nak masuk syurga

ko tau x
tpt itu mahal hargenye
ko tau x
azab neraka itu pedih x terkire

then...
nape ko stil bertangguh??
sbb ko rase ko hidup lame ke?

sedar x
Tuhan bley tarik nyawe kite bile2...

rase2...
cukup ke amal kite nak berhadap ng die??

strength

Then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive

So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Oh ho, Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away, hey yea

Hmm, looking for a hero... everyday we have sth that we r afraid of.. it is undeniably wrong that we r not having fear of the uncertainty that our future holds..

but when we r still gasping for air in this Earth,we still have to go on.....
But remember, we have Him....

Jus don't forget to supplicate His Blessings for the days lie ahead n He'll stand by us=)

petang ini

alhamdullilah......i'd finished 3 papers olredi...one more 2 go..hehe

deep inside my heart, i'm really hoping 4 7 but i dont think i can get 7 4 bio due 2 high requirement 4 final.. 4 stat n math, there r some questions i failed 2 answer, but i leave it to God bcoz i know He knows da best 4 us....=)

then, to release myself from this exam mood(even i still hv chem dis monday), i went to city, thinking of rewarding myself for staying in da house 4 da whole week to prepare myself 4 exam..
no shopping 4 2day, only buying tempura and a novel 2 b read after da exam..huhuhu

las nyte, i checked my marks for stat n chem projects..alhamdullilah, i got better than expected. though these marks r not super-duper excellent but i thanked God bcoz He had healed my frustration due 2 bio project...

i didnt know how 2 react at first when i c da results...but when i flipped thru His Book, it is stated in al-A'la,
" And We make ur life easier(2 reach happiness in Da World n Hereafter), hence give reminders 2 others bcoz reminders r beneficial"

all of sudden, i made myself 2 istifar bcoz i had been approching boasting habit again... it seemed like my face was slapped by someone.... ya Allah, thanz 4 this reminder.. whatever happen in my life... pliz3, dont make myself a forgetful person... bcoz i know the strength is only came from U..

i lyke dis petang, strolling around the city alone.. sometimes other people stared at me.. y?.. is dat bcoz i'm wearing hijab?? i dont really care, bcoz i'm proud wif my faith.....

n now, 3 more days 2 go... n then i'll start with my numerous plans... dunno what da outcome but again... Allah, pliz make my life smoother...i'm insignificant but i know u can hear my prayer=)

plan aku

tinggal 7 hari lg nak final....
aku stil d bilik, xstat dgn efisien nye stadi...dlm otak byk lg nak buat...even esemen dah abih...

hari ni..aku jus kemas umah yg sgt horror... sume tpt aku sental... sinki toilet,sinki dapur,, lantai dapor, ape lg a.......punye la sebulan aku bertahan nak cuci bnd2 alah nu.....n den bilik aku plak horror..dgn buku2 yg penuh d katil... kertas2 bercampuran.... aghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

nnt nak kuar pegi bank, beli brg umah...aku nak stay back kat library jap....

4 dis exam aku nak sgt yg terbaek......(cet,stadi maen2...porah!!).... kalo xdpt A, B pon layan...
yg penting aku kena usaha nnt, result 2 belakang kira....

aku penin... otakku yg penuh dgn plan2 after exam..bwk kwn p tgk kangaroo.. nak wat gathering, nak blaja kereta, nak p travel around brisbane... sume ni nak buat dlm 2 minggu b4 aku p kije kat melbourne. sje nak cari duit lebih, nak cover balik keborosan aku ari2...

balik then, aku nak urus hal umah..sbb ade org baru nak masuk.....den nak pilih subjek ape nnt...
hmm,nnt kgkawan aku akan dtg cnie nex year, aku xcited,hua2....

point nye,mmg life ni xkan berhenti..ko akn sentiasa buat kije.. smd berpekdah o x berpekdah...
ade la stg...tdo pon kire wat stg kan,hehe....

uwa,aku akan berjuang!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

p/s: to kgkawan yg nak exam, gud luck.. usaha dan byk2 doa ea=)