A Delay In A Prayer

“A delay in a prayer” a wonderful inspiring story


There were only 15 minutes left before Salat-ul Isha.
He quickly made Wudhu and performed Salat-ul Maghrib.

While making Tasbih, he again remembered his grandmother and was embarrassed by how he had prayed.His grandmother prayed with such tranquillity and peace.
He began making Dua and went down to make Sajdah and stayed like that for a while.
He had been at work all day and was tired, so tired.

He awoke abruptly to the sound of noise and shouting.
He was sweating profusely.
He looked around.
It was very crowded.

Every direction he looked in was filled with people.
Some stood frozen looking around, some were running left and right and some were on their knees with their heads in their hands just waiting.
Pure fear and apprehension filled him as he realized where he was.
His heart was about to burst.

It was the Day of Judgment.

When he was alive, he had heard many things about the questioning on the Day of Judgment, but that seemed so long ago.
Could this be something his mind made up?
No, the wait and the fear were so great that he could not have imagined this.
The interrogation was still going on.
He began moving frantically from people to people to ask if his name had been called.

No one could answer him.

All of a sudden his name was called and the crowd split into two and made a passageway for him.
Two angels grabbed his arms and led him forward.
He walked with unknowing eyes through the crowd.
The angels brought him to the centre and left him there.
His head was bent down and his whole life was passing in front of his eyes like a movie.
He opened his eyes but saw only another world.

The people were all helping others.
He saw his father running from one lecture to the other, spending his wealth in the way of Islam.
His mother invited guests to their house and one table was being set while the other was being cleared.
He pleaded his case, I too was always on this path.
I helped others. spread the word of Allah.
I performed my Salah. I fasted in the month of Ramadhan.
Whatever Allah ordered us to do, I did.
Whatever he ordered us not to do, I did not.’

He began to cry and think about how much he loved Allah.
He knew that whatever he had done in life would be less than what Allah deserved and his only protector was Allah He was sweating like never before and was shaking all over.
His eyes were fixed on the scale, waiting for the final decision
At last, the decision was made.

The two angels with sheets of paper in their hands, turned to the crowd.
His legs felt like they were going to collapse.
He closed his eyes as they began to read the names of those people who were to enter Jahannam.

His name was read first.

He fell on his knees and yelled that this couldn’t be,‘How could I go to Jahannam?
I served others all my life, I spread the word of Allah to others’.
His eyes had become blurry and he was shaking with sweat.
The two angels took him by the arms.

As his feet dragged, they went through the crowd and advanced toward the blazing flames of Jahannam.
He was yelling and wondered if there was any person who was going to help him.
He was yelling of all the good deeds he had done, how he had helped his father, his fasts, prayers, the Noble Qur’an that he read, he was asking if none of them would help him.
The Jahannam angels continued to drag him.
They had gotten closer to the Hellfire. He looked back and these were his last pleas.

Had not Rasulullah [SAW] said,‘How clean would a person be who bathes in a river five times a day, so too does the Salah performed five times cleanse someone of their sins’?He began yelling, ‘My prayers? My prayers? My prayers.?’

The two angels did not stop, and they came to the edge of the abyss of Jahannam.
The flames of the fire were burning his face. He looked back one last time, but his eyes were dry of hope and he had nothing left in him.
One of the angels pushed him in. He found himself in the air and falling towards the flames. He had just fallen five or six feet when a hand grabbed him by the arm and pulled him back.

He lifted his head and saw an old man with a long white beard.
He wiped some dust off himself and asked him, ‘Who are you?’
The old man replied, ‘I am your prayers’.

‘Why are you so late! I was almost in the Fire! You rescued me at the last minute before I fell in’.

The old man smiled and shook his head,
‘You always performed me at the last minute, did you forget?’ (And what of those who perform no prayers at all?)

At that instant, he blinked and lifted his head from Sajdah. He was in a sweat.
He listened to the voices coming from outside. He heard the Adhan for Salat-ul Isha.
He got up quickly and went to perform Wudhu.


Pass this on to your friends and family. Maybe, you can help someone open their eyes Insha Allah.

Jazaakallah for reading this.

May Allah guide us all ameen

da letter

yesterday I felt so down...

despite sweet memories that I have with Adelaidians yet my heart is not calm enough to let me study whole-heartedly....

And then the letter that had been passed by Kak Zatil from University of Queensland gave me smile...

hah... very ironic right?

jejak jejak........

balik dari daurah sabtu lalu.... sangat terkesan...

sesungguhnya pada waktu itu ibaratnya akulah y mengambil manfaat pengisian... sharing dari kak balqis menjagakan ku... aku xlelap... kerana content nye benar untuk kawan2 dan diriku juga...

as-syabab yang ku dapat kali ini berganda kelekatannya pada hati daripada yg aku dapat di malaysia suatu tika dahulu.... Syukur Ya Allah...

dan impak terbesar adalah selepas aku melihat video jejak-jejak mimpi.. bley cari kat yputube..hohoho..

aku xtaw.. dari dulu lagi...aku lebih mudah terkesan dengan video berbanding speech orang...mungkin dengan video aku bisa lebih fokus tanpa menjudge siapakah penyampainya... titik yang mengejutkan ku pertama kali apabila aku menonton video "shift your paradigm"... ku rasakan fakta2 dari video itu telah biasa ku terima.. apa boleh buat..aku memang suka sejarah..bukanlah disebabkan tujuan untuk belajar sebab dan akibat tapi kisah2 sejarah ini membuatkan ku terkagum dan berfikir suasana hidup zaman sebelumku...

tapi itulah...bertempat di KMB... bersaksikan meja dan kerusi lecture theater... hati ku tersentak,, mindaku terpukul..mataku terbuka...air mata ini menitis.. saat itulah aku mula berfikir akan nasib umat...

kemudian mendekati Final IB, aku tonton pula episod "The Arrivals of Antichrist"... isinya agak berat.. episode demi episode aku teruskan dan tiba pada episod ke-40 barulah dapat ku kaitkan fakta2 yang dipapar dgn x berhenti pada episod2 lalu... dan ketika itulah aku sedar akan Zionis... dengan pendedahan taktik2 mereka.. aku benar2 geram dengan Zionis.. pada ketika itulah aku benar2 berkeputusan untuk memboikot barang2 Yahudi yang menyumbang kepada peluru2 yang membunuh saudaraku di Palestin...

dan hujung minggu itu..melihat video jejak2 mimpi... mengetuk kembali mindaku untuk terus bermimpi.. tidak salah bermimpi.... kerana tanpa mimpi kamu tidak melakar harapan yang mahu kamu capai kemudian... sungguh..aku pernah menulis mimpi2 ku dan tahun demi tahun mimpi yang ku tulis itu tinggal jadi coretan kerana telah ku gapai mimpi2 itu...

dan saat ini... aku mahu bermimpi kembali.. untuk melakar jejakku.....

BARAKAh

duduk termangu...

aku terfikir... ilmuku, ongkosku, masaku... tenagaku.... ade berkat x??

aku penah dengar.. keberkatan tu kita jumpa bilamana dengan input yg sedikit berdasarkan sistem Sunnatullah menghasilkan output yang optimum productionnya... macam bila process tu dapat hasilkan banyak product dengan betul aplikasi equilibriumnya... (ok Atikah, sila stop mengarut skang)...

dulu join itu ini mase Menengah Rendah.. study malam exam... result agak gempak di situ..

pegi Menengah atas.... SPM la tujuan tyme tu kan... masuk club itu ini... jalan sakan situ sini (oh lupa mau cakap,saya sangat la suka travel ^-^).... mantap la jugak... xheran kalo ade exam ke apa.. aku layan je pegi conference ke, camping ke, quiz ke... (mau berjalan punya pasal kan)

masuk KMB.. di sini aku kenal erti susah sket nak blajo... blaja rase konsisten.. isi buku tu diulang berkali-kali.. namun aku musykil... nape x semantap zaman sekolah dulu... lihat kawan2 yg xberapa excel kat sekolah menengah datang KMB bersinar gemilang pencapaiannya...

fly la OZ... dok UQ la kan.. xyah cakap r... 1st year tahan lagi..rase senang je blajo.. masuk second year ya Allah awat aku rase susah ni... aku study kot before exam... aku bace banyak kot nak buat assignment.. awat aku rase so-so dr pencapaian sekolah dulu??

jawapan common: standard ar, name masuk uni... tapi aku jumpe insan2 yang excel... tengok die bace article ni, notes tu.. buat exercises..mantap RESULTNYE!!! aku jeles.. fine, kan taw usaha tu yang penting.. result tu belakang kire.. hohohoho, stil la kan... aku jus terfikir..............

BERKAT ke usaha dan ilmu ku?? aku study, tapi bile jawab ade je yg careless.. ade je yg blank...ade je yg resah.. aku rindukan ketenangan, smoothness di dalam menjawab soalan exam dan tika mana jugak ketika membuat esemen2 itu... aku rasakan aku tertido je dalam kelass.. aku rasakan aku keluar dr lecture theatre dgn 10% dr yg lecture kasi....

reflek2... yup, ade bende yg menghalang ilmu ni menembusi hatiku.. " Cahaya tidak akan menembusi hati yg penuh kegelapan"... ya Allah... masalah hati... dulu aku xpenah consider pasal isu hati ni... hepi je enjoy hidupku... skang dgn ilmu agama yg ku terima dr orang dan pembacaan.. nape aku rase begitu sukar untuk dijaga hati ini?? Inikah yanga menghalang barakah ilmuku? usahaku? tenagaku? wangku? bagaimana cara ku sematkan keikhlasan tu hanya untuk DIa???

ARGH!!!! (eksyen je ni, nak tambah sound effect... dun wori, diriku masih waras lagi, ngeh3)........

ok la..aku xkisah la result tu... aku mahukan ketenangan tu...aku mahu rasa dipermudahkan dalam finishkan urusan tu.. aku rindukan memori dr sekolah menengah dahulu...

yoyo...hati.... meh kite pi mandi nak?? takut pedih dengan sabun ea?? xpe, kita lalukan air je.. nak buang keladak2 hitam tu... meh hati.. mai p cleankan sket... nanti susah taw nak hilang... jadi permanent daki nanti... moh2 kita....

emptykan atau tidak

hmm..luahan ni agak kontroversial...... respon ade beberapa...

terfikir balik,ape niat aku letakkan post tu...

dan terfikir balik, perlu kosongkan atau tidak..

padam ke xpadam... bingung!!!!

Jongkang jongkit study dan tarbiyah

sekadar sharing.... balik dari katibah...semangat ini makin kuat.. jom baca kisah di bawah:

Lia, jomlah pergi usrah
Lia, jomlah berdakwah
Lia, ummah semakin koyak
Lia, jomlah kita bangkit mengubah
segalanya

Aku tidak mahu
Aku kena study
Markah semester lepas dah cukup teruk
Gara-gara dakwah, tarbiah dan program
Aku menyesal megikuti semua itu
Bosan!!
Dakwah bukan je plainly cerita
rububiyah ketuhanan,tapi banyak lagi skopnya
Bukan ke islam tu syumul
Kalau nak berjaya, kena study
Waktu study, studylah
Esok kalau dah berjaya
Aku buatlah kerja dakwah tu
Kalau aku buat kerja dakwah,
aku gagal dalam pelajaranku
Kan nanti aku menutup mata orang lain terhadap Islam

Lia, dakwah dan pelajaran bukan macam jongkang jongking

Jongkang jongking?
Apa kau merepek ni?

Ya, dakwah dan pelajaran BUKAN macam jongkang jongking
Bila dakwah di atas, pelajaran di bawah
Bila pelajaran di atas, dakwah di bawah
Tu bukan dakwah namanya
Dan tu bukan belajar namanya

Habis tu?

Hmm, dakwah dan pelajaran kena berkadar terus
Tak boleh inversely proportional

Apa maksud kau?

Orang yang melakukan kerja dakwahdengan ikhlas
akan menemukan Allah dalam pelajarannya

Aku tidak faham

Tak pe, aku terangkan
Macam gini, bila dah berdakwah tu
Rasa senang je nak study
Bila belajar tentang mitokondria misalnya
Boleh bayangkan betapa hebatnya Allah ciptakan mitokondria
Bila belajar tentang algebra, terasa kerdilnya diri
Bila belajar tentang Hukum Boyle, terasa akrab dengan Pencipta
Kenapa?
Sebab diri tahu bahawa hukum-hukum tersebut adalah hukum Allah
Ilmu-ilmu tersebut adalah milik Allah
Rasa senang hati nak terima ilmu
Kalau orang lain study 1 jam
Dia hanya perlu study 10 minit sahaja
Sebab apa?
Sebab ada keberkatan masa dalam studynya itu

Aku tak pernah rasa semua itu
Lain tu, selama ni kau nak cakap yang
aku ikut program tarbiah dan dakwah tu tak ikhlas?

Tak, itu bukan maksud aku
Cuma kena checklah sikit hati tu
Waktu buat kerja dakwah tu, ada tak berlaku tarik tali dengan Allah

Apa maksud kau tarik tali dengan Allah?

Ok, aku berikan contoh
Misalnya waktu buat kerja dakwah tu,
Terdetik tak kat hati , banyak lagi yang tidak habis belajar
Terdetik tak kat hati, assignment banyak lagi
Itulah maksudnya tarik tali dengan Allah
Ada keraguan dalam hati
Seolah-olah tidak yakin dengan janji Allah
Siapa yang menolong agama Allah,
nescaya Allah akan menolongnya
Kita melakukan jual beli dengan Allah,
tapi kita tidak bayar lagi
Kita berdoa, tapi tak de kesungguhan dalam doa kita
Kita berdakwah, tapi hati kita tiada dengan Allah

Lia dah faham
Lia kena banyak muhasabah
Lia dah study dari tadi, tapi tak masuk-masuk
Lia tahu itu maksudnya peringatan dari Allah
Lia yang tahu hukum berdakwah tidak
mengerjakan kerja tersebut

Lia, sahabatku,
Seorang ibu pernah mengatakan
Aku ingin dakwah terlihat dalam setiap perbuatanku
Setiap kali aku bergaul dengan jiranku, aku ingin mereka merasakan
kemanisan iman dan Islam
Setiap kali jiranku melihat kebahagian
rumahtanggaku, aku ingin mereka merasakan keindahan Islam
Lia, itulah yang inginku kubentuk dalam diriku
Aku ingin setiap perbuatanku menjadi manifestasi dakwah itu sendiri
Pelajaranku, hubunganku dengan keluarga dan sahabat,
segalanya adalah dakwah
Moga kita bersama dalam usaha merealisasikannya
Lia, aku ingin berkongsi dua kisah,
Pertama, mengenai kisah Assyahid Imam Hassan AlBanna
Dan kedua kisah sahabatku di Indonesia
Moga kedua-dua kisah ini dapat kita renungkan bersama
Menjadi motivasi buat kita untuk terus
berada dalam mandala ini.

Lia, kau pastinya arif mengenai
Assyahid Imam Hassan AlBanna.
Dakwahnya menyinari hati umat manusia di saat itu. Dia berdakwah sehingga ke kawasan perkampungan di gunung-gunung yang tinggi. Semua manusia mengenalinya. Tanyakan sahaja di jalanan di saat itu, kenalkah kamu dengan Assyahid Imam Hassan Al Banna, pasti semua mengenalinya kerana kerja kerasnya di dalam perjuangan dakwah .

Lia, aku akui sememangnya untuk berjaya dalam pelajaran, kita kena berusaha. Itu Sunnatullah. Tapi Lia, kemenangan Islam takkan tertegak dengan kata-kata, dengan mimpi sahaja. Untuk memastikan kejayaan dakwah, kita juga kena berusaha. Itu juga adalah Sunnatullah. Kemenangan Islam memerlukan pengorbanan dari pengikutnya.

Lia, aku kongsikan pembacaanku dalam buku Detik-detik Hidupku karangan
Assyahid Imam Hassan Al Banna:

Allah, dengan sifat ArRahaman dan ArRahimNya, memberi ketenangan dan kepuasan kepada hambaNya yang beriman apabila Dia mahukan segala sesuatu urusan/ perkara Dia akan
mempermudahkan hambaNya itu untuk mencapainya. Pada malam sebelum ujian nahu, saya telah bermimpi. Di dalam mimpi tersebut, saya sedang berada dalam sebuah perahu bersama-sama ulama yang terkenal.Perahu itu sedang berlayar di Sungai Nil. Salah seorang
ulama itu menghampiri saya. Dia memakai pakaian orang-orang di pedalaman Mesir. Dia menyoal saya, Di mana syarah (huraian) Ibnu Aqeel mengenai al-Afiyah? Saya menjawab, Ini dia! Katanya, Mari kita ulangkaji sebahagian darinya. Buka ke muka surat sekian-sekian .

Saya pun membuka ke muka surat-muka surat yang disebutkannya dan mula mengulangkaji. Kemudian saya terkejut jaga. Saya sangat gembira. Pagi esoknya saya menduduki ujian. Saya dapati kebanyakan soalan datang dari muka surat-muka surat yang saya baca di dalam mimpi tersebut. Ini semua adalah rahmat Allah. Allah telah memberi rahmat istimewa kepada saya.
Mimpi yang benar adalah sumber maklumat kepada seorang Mukmin. Segala puji bagi Allah, Tuhan Semesta Alam.

Itulah rahsia kejayaan seorang Mukmin. Seorang sahabat di Indonesia pernah bercerita mengenai pelajarannya. Alhamdulillah, dia memperolehi yang terbaik.

Dia ingin mempertahankan prestasi terbaik untuk Allah, agama Allah. Di sudut lainnya, dia tidak suka mengejar dunia, bersaing untuk berasa hebat. Dia hanya ingin memberikan yang terbaik sebagai hamba Allah.

Dahulu dia bukan begitu. Dia pernah kecundang. Dia pernah bertanya kepada Allah - Ya Allah, kenapa engkau mentakdirkan prestasi yang baik buat temanku? Apakah temanku itu punya alasan yang kuat sehingga Engkau menolongnya. Aku mempunyai mimpi yang besar untuk menegakkan agamaMu melalui pergerakan dakwah. Maka aku mohon bahawa aku harus berjaya.

Lalu Allah memberitahu dirinya melalui suatu kisah sahabat yang dijamin masuk syurga, padahal seharian ibadahnya sama saja seperti sahabat yang lain. Dan ketika ditanya prinsip hidupnya, sahabat itu menjawab "Aku tak suka membanding-bandingk an apa yang Allahberikan kepada hamba-hambaNya. Aku yakin Allah Maha Baik dan menjamin kebaikan untukku dalam situasi sulit atau lapang. Aku akan tetap redha kepada Allah dalam situasi apapun. Aku akan tetap bersaksi bahawa Allah adalah Robb yang Maha Esa, meskipun gunung-gunung harta itu milikku atau aku tak punya harta sedikit pun.

Pasti Lia ingat lagi Assyahid Sheikh Ahmad Yassin. Dia cacat. Duduk di atas kerusi roda. Tapi apa yang telah dia lakukan? HAMAS berdiri dengan izzah. Musuh menggeruninya.

Lia, kita sempurna. Ayuh lakukan sesuatu untuk Islam. Ayuh berada dalam saf perjuangan.

" Mendambakan Cintaku Keranamu Allah"

karya asal K-Perak buat renungan dan muhasabah diri yang sentiasa leka ini agar ditetapkan, diteguhkan di atas jalan dakwah..

journey of laughs and tears

The one month had ended. The month that had carved memories in our hearts. The hearts belonged to Ayu, Ida, Syahirah, Syaal ,Bella,Iqah, Yen and me myself..

Our destination kept changing during this journey. It's not that we were all together. There would be the time when one of us had their own business to be prioritized on during this journey. But this unbreakable bond remain still until now because our heart has been tied by Him.

And within the journey of finding Ilahi, UNI (Ulfah Nur Insyirah) was born. This idea came from Syaal which bring the meaning of Friendship Lights of Happiness. It may sound lame to someone but I don't care because it has its mesmerizing effect on each of us.

This was the first interstate journey for Bella and she looked like enjoying the moments throughout this period. She's so good in becoming the one who's in charge in leading the way to each destination. With her Blackberry, she became the first one to arrive at WARM Camp with her group members. Thumbs up Bella! And I had had comments from a few sisters that she is very good in absorbing the message delivered through the seminars. It is true that the seminars that we have during the camp opened our eyes including me about out responsibility as a Messenger but due to her action of silence, it seems that she's thinking about the contents whole-heartedly.

To Ayu, sometimes I feel guilty because my lack of time spent together with her. She's my housemate yet I think we seem to be distant during this journey. I think I have pillow talk with everyone at Melbourne except her and Bella(Bella already had her sweet dreams of slumber every night ^^). But I'm very overwhelmed when I went back to Brisbane, there was a cheesecake written UNI on it in our fridge. She had put a great effort in her first attempt to bake the cake. But believe me Ayu, from the first day I met you in Brisbane, I know that you'll be my Harun as if I play a role as Moses and truthfully, you are there in my times of laughs and cries.

Ida had the most amount of pillow talk with me. Her experience reminded me of my crush at my high school. The difference is that our roles are reversed. From her story, it seems that I am the Romeo and the guy that I have a crush on is Juliet. I'm very sad for her. I think she had two biggest gut-wrenching difficulties during this journey. She had finished one and we are praying for her success. For another one I see she's developing her inner strength to fight the pressure. My doa is that you can strive to build your inner spirituality with Him.

To Syaal, I'm very touched with your letter. I am myself. There's nothing special about me. Ustaz Salam used to say, when a person grow up, he/she is influenced with people in his/her surrounding but when the person reaches 20, there are already about 30 people that have shapen his/her life. I just the one who sow the seed of fikrah which concentrates solely on Him. We may not be perfect but our effort does count right? I will remember our moments of baking carrot cake and Portugeese egg tart together. Don't you forget that we have a mission to establish a bakery business in the future.

Sometimes I feel very ashamed of myself because it took me about two years of thinking and travelling to set my mind as His servant in this Life.Your guys' heart are clearer from sins where it becomes faster for you to accept His Light. I still remember that within 6 months of knowing Tarbiyah, my heart still hard and rebellious towards His message but I'm very grateful because He let me met with greatest people that eventually become my companion.

To Syira, we spent our time together mostly in Sydney and Newcastle. You have a great chemistry with Ainina I can see that I know she's very close to you. But Thanz a lot for cooking sambal tempe for me. It's so mouth-watering and tastylicious!!
I will go to Gatton. you are the one who always concentrate in each work you are doing, making me wondering what is inside your mind. It's so unfortunate that I don't have a skill like Edward Cullen the vampire=p. I'll be going to Gatton with the doa that this journey will bring us close together.

To Iqah, we just managed to meet in my second week at Melbourne. we just had a few chats through hp but thank God we had our pillow and morning talks in Lygon St house. You used to say that you think you're not having sufficient knowledge in Islam and memorize few ayats in al-Quran but we're in the same boat my dear. but if we remember that many Sahabahs memorize less ayats yet they hv became the world's greatest people. However, we already received a complete mushaf in this era and it'll better if we try to memorize as many as we can in our mind. ^^

to Yen, how's Malaysia. Is there any jetlag when you go home in Malaysia and come back to Oz? How's your laptop? How's Sydney? hahaha, so many questions i would ask due to 1 month of not meeting. If you know how much we miss you during the journey. We always quote your line "Nak air ape?". you're the best pembancuh air among us with your five-star service. I really hope you'll join the trip when it comes to this spring holiday. But still yen, I will keep visiting you when the new semester has opened,ngeh3..

To Aina, welcome to UNI.. how Brisbane?? we met because of IDP, IB, biotechnology and the month of July. I also hope Aina manage to join the trip on this spring hols. You have the enigma, the spirit and the charisma to put yourself one more step further. Juz pray a lot and befriend good people, InsyaAllah your life will be blessed. Don't worry about adapting your life here, there are a lot of friend to lend a hand only for you Aina. And be a good housemate to Kak Diana ok my dear!!

and Diana, we still are waiting for you.. Welcome to Brisbane and let us draw our histories together as a Caliphate and His servant..

Ameen

hikmah mimpi ini

Aku bangun ....
kekagetan...
bergetar hari ini.. ingatkan ajal dah kunjung tiba.....

ceritanya begini:

aku balik malaysia cuti.. kembalinya ku ke tanah cuti itu bukanlah untuk menabur bakti pada keluarga dan orang2 terdekat tetapi adalah untuk meninggi diri dengan ilmu sekelumit yg dimiliki. kerana dah belajar tinggi, nasihat ibuku diingkari. aku mimpi aku dah berkahwin time tu(ape jadik ng husband aku after tu xtawla)..

ade skali flight aku kol 6... distance dr rumahku ke airport tu dalam 15minutes... tp aku bersiap lewat dlm kol 4 camtu.. ibu aku yg concern dgn anaknye ni mule la celotehnye krn kecuaian diri..aku ape lagi,, terus packing x layan celotehnye tu blah dr rumah.. ya Allah derhaka benar aku...

on the way nak g jalan tu..

rupenye aku tersilap jalan.. masuk lorong laen..tibe2 ade polis dtg nek motor 2 orang.. aku confius, aku ade buat salah ape2 ke..owh rupenye aku lintas jln before lampu merah utk kereta2 kat road tue.. dgn beg aku yg satu lagi tertinggal kat lorong yg aku sesat tadi, aku nak melangkah amik beg aku.. tibe2 tgok rmai polis..dgn rifle n baju kalis peluru..bertahan dgn pengganas..

di situ aku tengok srikndi2 yg terdiri dr kawan2ku d brisbane bangkit untuk menentang..
aku pd masa tu sangatla kecut.. diorg ajak aku untuk berjuang tp aku takutkan mati..kami hanya bersalaman n berpelukan, gusar sekiranye itulah saat terakhir kami dapat berjumpa....

dan termasuklah aku bersama-sama orang yg dilindungi.. perjuangan dimulakan dgn seorang budak kecil yang bangkit ke depan untuk berlawan (macam Intifadah di Palestin) tetapi peluru n phosporus putih menembusi badannya.. aku kaget..sebelum ni aku mmg takut tgok video kekejaman Palestin.. serius, aku prefer bace dr tgok gambar2 tue walaupun aku sbnarnye perlu tahu ape yg btol2 terjadi kpd saudara kite d sana..

anak kecil itu tidak berganjak.. aku nampak badannya hancur tetapi wajahnya masih cantik tidak diusik dgn peluru2 itu(terikat Syeikh Ahmad Yassin).. perjuangan diteruskan dan aku yg dilindungi tu berdebar-debar dgn nasib tempatku itu.. adakah endingku mati dibunuh?? dan aku memohon Tuhan supaya dipanjangkan umr ini.. mimpiku x berakhir,, aku bangun dgn kekejutan...

tetapi yg aku sedar sekarang jika diajak untuk berperang, aku masih lagi takut.. jihadku dgn nafsu selalu je kalah.. hatiku penuh dgn noda2 hitam.. mimpiku itu tiada ending, adakah untuk aku mendecide ke mana mahu ku tujukan jalan hidup ini... hatiku ini lemah, sakit, berkarat.. ya Tuhan...ku mohon hanya satu,benarkanlah aku menjejak syurgamu.. berikanlah aku kekuatan melawan jahiliah ini.. kerana ku pasti yg satu,, ku x mahukan penat lelah d bumi ini diakhiri dengan penyeksaan azab yg berulang kali

`Nauzubillah

sepotong ayat

Sampaikanlah walaupun sepotong ayat...lame dah aku menyepi.. mane taknye,aku dok buat programming software engineering byk hari dah..

penin kepala den, code ni dah macam ulat2 pon ade,hohoho...skang nak berusaha siapkan philosophy esay lak,hohohoho...

my mesej:


ISLAH NAFSAK WAD'U GHAIRAK

Perbaikilah dirimu dan serulah orang lain ke arah kebaikan.

tu je,huhuhuhu

adios n salam!!!

in this intersection....

I woke up n saw the sun's shining throughout the horizon.... again i slept after subuh *sigh*

no wonder I found myself so hard to study and my money deplete exponentially.. kurang rezeki orang kate kan tido after subuh....

within dis one month, the season when brisbane newcomers 're coming, i met so many people with various diversity of life. Sometimes i wonder, how our short meeting with each other can establish an unbreakable bond between us.... n together, we discuss with each other the path for us to find Ilahi..

i really like a quote from Hilal Asyraf ; "Tuhan tidak pernah lupekan Kita".. So i think it's not wrong for us to sit together and spare our time to ponder about Him and his wonderful creations...

Yesterday we went thru ar-Rahman and it is mentioned:

"Then which of the Blessings of your Lord will you both(jinn and men) deny?

Just a sentence to ponder ok=)

To Ayu, Bella, Zuhreen, Iqah, Ida, Sya'al and Syahirah...

Truly i wanna say i love you all, if you guys really realize your willingness to be with me really excite my heart.there's no word to describe..

I remember the day when we walked together, ate together, went around brisbane together, slept in my home together(even you guys slept on the floor, sorry sis, i love the couch very much,hohoho)

And the difficulties that we had gone through made our friendship grows stronger.

To my housemates, Kak Zatil, Kak Sarah & Ayu..

The one month of our togetherness as housemates is a splendid moment for me... Even it's just an ordinary thing for others, but for me I really appreciate these astounding moments..

I respect Kak Zatil due to her achievement from MJSC Lenggong and determination in which this aspires me to become a Pass Leader like her. I remember the time we cooked together in the kitchen when Ayu n Kak Sarah still in Malaysia. And I know you are a nasik-person,hohoho... I respect Kak Sarah due to her independence and wondering the way she try to fix the study desk together by herself. I remember when we had usrah together and cooked paprik togehther. Your quietness always startle(in the positive way) me kak.. And Ayu, you jus come here for about a month... we'd known each other since MJSC PC but becoming your housemate make me know you better. How I'm impressed with your organized-way and to compare with my messiness, it's really such a huge gap,hohoho

Truly to say, I'm not the best person to be a great housemate and friend. It's just this is who I am.. I try be good for everyone but sometimes i break one's heart, i disappoint you guys... n quite sometimes i become annoying person by inviting you to join any programme with me... But this is me, with my capability I try to make people happy but still at one point i'm not capable to satisfy everyone....

I'm really2 sorry but i hope our bond won't be tarnished with my wrongdoings.. The mistake that I'd done is not well-deserved with a sorry...

But still I beg, let's us become friends together..

I want to work for Him as my investment to Paradise, and I want my friends to be together so that we can step into it together. And here, i give my hand to ask you guys to be with me..Let's us hold our hands together so that whatever think happens, we'll strive together with our energy and surely with His blessing=)

refreshing my spirit....

I have stepped into a new paradigm. With a higher level of maturity and compassion, I try to view things through various eyes. Putting myself in people shoes, I've became a 85% of non-judgemental person. How do you want to deal with people who have different background, principles and views in life.

I try to act cool even my heart figuratively is stabbed by knife over and over again.
I try to think i am capable to deal with any difficulties on my own.
I try to create a new entity so that i would be a trendsetter instead of a follower.
I try to draft my plans so that I can obtain an outcome as i have expected.
And I try......

Then,
I think I am not strong,
I think I'm going to collapse,
I think I want to die rather than committing more sins,
I think I want to stop studying and get married early(so funny^^),
I think I am so messy,
I think I am lost...

I'm wondering..
To whom I should turn myself to?
I try to tell someone but i realize they have their own problems,
So I backed off...

And the call I get from my friend just now through Skype,
asking me how I still remain strong in this path..
The Tarbiyah Path..
remind me that I have Him...
He gives myself this strength because this quality solely belongs to him..
And remind me that I am not alone..
And i have Someone to rely on,
Someone who knows the best for me,
Someone who loves me really much to pull me into the real paradigm,
Who make me realize that I am created in this Earth with an intended purposes..

Verily, along with every hardship is relief,
So when you have finished (your occupation), devote yourself to Allah worship
And to your Lord turn all your intentions and hopes.


Ash-Sharh :6-8

p/s : thanks to my friend from Ireland for the call. I know Allah have sent you to convey His reminder to both of us. Through Him, you are the medium that i get to know this path. Thanks again, see you in Jannah my luv, ****.....

lupe...

kite selalu...dekat nak exam berdoa pd Allah, spy dimudahkan usaha..
dalam menghafal, dlm mengingat, even dalam menunggu keputusan..
even kalo kite x bykkan solat, lengahkan semayang, x byk bace quran (alasan study dowh)..
kite stil berharap dgn YG MAHA KUASA...

Soalnye, bile kite dah dapat result 2... kite berbalikkah pd Maha Pencipta??
ada 2 situation iaitu result baek or x baek..
setakat mane level yg dianggap baek 2 bergantung pd individu masing2...
ade org kate kalo pass 2 dah kire baek, ade yg kate dpt A baru baek.. ade jugak kate result A cemerlang terbilang iaitu average more than 90... layan la macam mane pon...

hakikatnye, kalo kite dpt result baek...pas2 org ckp.. "wah, hebat r ko, respek dowh" @
"wei,camne ko stadi...sharing2 la" @ "ko mmg genius la" @ bla blabla

ade x tyme 2 terdetik perasaan kat diri : " hmm, aku stadi efisien, mmg r result gempak"
@ "aku mmg genius, bace ape pun cpt pick up" @ "lecturer n tutor mantap, standard r result hebat"

then bg plak situation apb result x seberapa hebat, ade x terdetik dalam hati,
"hmm, soklan ni susah...geram aku..nyesal stadi smpai kol 1pagi" @
"lecturer ni r x sedap, geram dowh" @ "aku menyampah dgn subjek ni"

apepon respon nye... pernah ke kite berbalik pd Allah... tahu x hakikatnye result or even condition mane pon dah ditetapkan kat Loh Mahfuz??
maksudnye, kalo result kite baek..bkn sbb usaha kite..bkn sbb lecturer kite.. bkn sbb otak kite yg disangka genius abad 21... nehihe (ini impot bhs hindustan)

ape2 yg berlaku dlm hidup ni atau aku analogikan sbg result is not dependent on usaha@amal@perbuatan kite.....so... tidak perlulah nak menyesal jika kite dah buat yg terbaek untuk capai sth... tidak perlulah bimbang sgt akan keputusan yg kite bakal terime... dan tidak perlu memandang enteng akan kepentingan usaha...

sebabnye,bnd yg btol2 dinilai adalah usaha...ni lah markah yg akan decide smd ending kite Syurga @ Neraka...tp ingat dah ckp td usaha x mempengaruhi keputusan.. tp Tuhan maha adil..ape yg kite dpt kat HereAfter adlh dr bende yg kite dah buat kat muka bumi ni....

berbalik pd citer result td....ape2 yg berlaku..berbaliklah pd Tuhan... ingat, dalam kite mengharap suatu keputusan, mintaklah jugak diperkuatkan hati utk terime keputusan 2.. mintaklah dr sumber kekuatan 2..

yg penting,niat btol...dalam kes aku yg tgh blaja ni.... selalu org crampkan otak when it comes 2 exam..
taw nak revise byk bende but dlm proses blaja 2,ape niat kite sbnrnye.. mmg iklas nak blaja ke??

tengok x skg..byk je graduan bile dah masuk alam bekerja involve dlm rasuah, pecah amanah.. ape gune ilmu yg dah digali 2?? x heran jugak bnde yg kite blaja kejap je bley luput.. tetapkanlah keiklasan untuk blaja so that mase yg kite spend utk blaja bermanfaat 4 our life in the future..

don b a forgetful person... remind ourselves, we r one of His creations in dis Earth..

p/s: ayat aku berputar belit lg... mintak ampun na

mau jdik robot ka???

after 3 minggu aku kije d kilang ceri ni, akhirnye jadilah aku seorg penganggur bertauliah..

nak taw level tauliah aku??

aku menyepi dr fb,blog, even hp(yg mulenye disangka ilang), berguling2 dan menyumbat makanan dlm system peristalsisku.... aku dah fed up.. nak jadi ular sawa ke ape??

uwa..apekah...bygkan dpt 2000 dolar tp tup tap mcm dah abih..hmm, ape ni??
rezeki aku ni berkat ke?? bimbang benar sbb aku x rase nikmat duit yg aku dpt ni..

dah la duit mara x masuk lagi,,mmg sgt gusar hati ni...terpk mcm mane nak smbut junior..kene2 diorg nak tumpang umah..byk jugak kene spend tp aku xkisah pon..sgt excited nak smbut diorg (bouncing up n down olredi)...

kene2 aku bukak la fb.ade la sumone memberi berite..yg mana aku mendapat rezeki x semena-mena.. heran bin ajaib kan.. maha suci tuhan Allah mmg die la yg Memberi..

aku berazam,even cutiku masih pjg.. aku mahu berhenti jdik robot.. iaitu manusia yg kejenye buat bnde same tnpa discover apekah motif d sebalik perbuatan diorg.. kononnye duit lah tujuannye..tp kene gaye duit yg keluar mcm air, setakat manekah nilai sebenar duit 2??

pk la sendiri..korg join sekaki x dlm persatuan robot-robot ni..

p/s : tidurku, hidupku, makanku,sujudku hanyalah untukMu

kami

skg dah masok thn baru..

but siyes,i've some plans drafted in my head.... *spinning2*

kenangan aku g kutip ceri sgt syok.. priceless........

aku yg paling muda...bersame akak2 yg aku rase xde barrier.. kami rapat.. try 2 imagine.. jus within 3 weeks we'd became so close, closer than my friends that i've met in brisbane..



this ukhwah is strengthened by Him.. nak katekan kitorg sume course len2, dr uni laen2.. but we have our similarity that is our belief in Allah...

and He has bonded our heart, thicker than alkyne bond.. susah nak break woo....

to kak ezzathy, kak nisya, kak dal, kak diba, kak intan, kak fini, kak dee, kak aisyah, kak naniey, kak dayah, and kak anis.. c u again in Jannah=)