Dun Wori

Tadi housemate saye cakap....

"Atikah dis year banyak nangis la"

saye reply: "Ye ke?" p/s : dalam percubaan nak deny...hahahaha


Ade sorang adek cakap

"Kak Tikah memang emo"

saye reply : "Mane ade?" p/s : in denial again


ade adek lain cakap

"Last year saye tengok Kak Tikah xsedih pon, akak ni ade perasaan x. this year saye tengok akak nangis"

saye reply : Sob3... p/s : nangis keluar hingus


ade adek laen cakap

"Saye xtaw pon akak ade masalah last year.. sbb saye tengok akak biase2 je"

saye reply : Hahahhahaha p/s : bajet xde feeling


ade sister tegur

" Atikah, awak kena ubah diri awak.. supaya orang laen bley trust awak"

Saye : Ok2 (angguk2 kepala) p/s : Allah bagi tarbiyah dgn teguran direct dari orang


ade sister cakap

" Saye terase dengan Atikah.. ............"

Saye : Awak terase dengan saye banyak ke?

Sister : x, dengan orang laen jugak

Saye : Ok(angguk2 again)


ade adek cakap

"Akak, kalo sedih bley je cite kat saye"

Saye reply : Hmm, nanti akak fikirkan
p/s : dan saye sambung buat lawak berjela-jela.. kami gelak dgn sangat sakan,hihihi


Saye nangis, saye nampak lembik, saye nampak down... mungkin nanti orang kurang nak bagitaw berita2 kurang manis dgn fact saye akan nangis kemudian...

Hmm, camne nak cakap ea.... saye xmenyesal dengan ape yang berlaku... saye cube memikirkan sebanyak mungkin hikmah atas kejadian2 yang berlaku...

Saye dulu, hati batu... sebab tu kurang sensitif ( sampai skang pon)... orang nak share bende baek, saye rebel... sbb ade 'orang-orang baek' ni suke judge orang... orang tu pakaian camni la, camtu la... cakap budak2 kurang baek ni xde harapan la nak berubah....die buat camnila, camtula.... kalo 'orang-orang baek ni' cakap ape2, saye pangkah

p/s : jahat kan bunyi, yeah.... that's me few years back....

Hidayah milik Allah, saye nak rapat dengan Dia... dapat dari sorang ustaz...
" Sesiapa yang orang menerima hidayah melalui dirinya, itu lebih baek dari unta merah dan seisi dunianya"
p/s : nanti bile2 saye cite pasal the significance of the unta merah


saye pon berusaha berhempas-pulas nak ajak orang rapat dengan Dia... penah kena baling telur, penah kene baling dengan air tin... sebab jalan sorang2 time malam.. saye pon dapat idea, next tyme kuar malam sorang2 saye pakai hoodies....

saye p tempat ni, tempat itu... saye share ape yang saye dapat, belajar dan bace...

dan this year..saye tersedar saye banyak neglect those around me....

ade incident2... air mata saye keluar (mata saye kian bersih sekarang, wink3)...

hati saye rase dush3,hahahahhaha....

tapi ini tarbiyah Allah...

rase syukur.... sebab hal ini membunuh ego yang dulunye kat stake petala ke-8....

air mata yang keluar, adalah sebagai kafarah dosa..

Allah teaches us in a harsh way, kills the thing that we love and like the most...

for what??

I know the answer and very grateful for that...

Allah loves me...

Allah put me in different kind of situations and surrounded by unique people.. All of us are unique....

What matter the most is our Taqwa....

and how much we put Allah in our heart, leaving everything that we feel very important in our life....

I cry, but dun wori, that is the way to soften my heart so I won't have the destructive ego, that make people run away form me (hah, already happen before, hahahah)

I have Allah, and the spirit from the people with the fikrah... we do this for the sake of Him kan??

and we are chasing for His reda kan??

Allah, do everything... but don't ever let me think all the thing that manage to happen are within my capability...

just forget to say, I always cry when I can't control a particular situation... but that teaches me.. Only Him can make anything done.. Kun Fayakun...

ok, suda banyak merepek... I will stop now... going to meet the Brissies tonight, and I am determined to go to the examination room tomorrow with a smiling face, heheho....

p/s : I love Him, and the others because of Him